Hey all! 
I have not been in a good place at all, for the first time in many many years I have felt depressed, I hated that feeling, I feel myself emerging into caring about myself again and it feels really good! I hope it continues b/c the self hate was killing me! I am really going to work harder and harder to get here!
Omg! Boston! I'm so sad for you right now, I can't believe what I read! I'm SOOOOOO praying for you! I don't know what to say, I'm lost for words! Just know that I am praying for you hard!!!! 

Now all my things I am going through seem so trivial! Ugh! I was going to come on here and give you all my sob story but after reading about sweet Boston, I just can't!
Busy week ahead of me with Sara's Graduation and my last week of school! I told Patrick, it was hard b/c I really do love them so much but the reality is they need to be on their own at their age and we need our space back, so we told them till August/September, so we'll see how that goes!
weight wise I just can't stand myself any more! So, I knew this summer I had to do something about this, I had a plan to really work this, like I did 2 summers before, so as I was building myself up to get back at it, one of the teachers at school came to me and asked me if I wanted to join a Biggest Loser challenge that they were doing, I told her I was in before she was even done telling me about it! It runs the whole summer and we will wi on the first day back in the fall, It cost $25 and 10 of us joined in so the pot is $250 for the winner, but we each have a buddy so we will end up with $125 but for me its not about the money at all, even though its a bonus
no matter if I win the challenge I will still be a winner! Having a partner helps so much, I don't want to let her down, my partner is awesome, I've known her for a very long time, she used to post here under fatcatlosing, we already have each others back and it just feels right with her being my buddy! So, today I feel hopeful!
I have not been in a good place at all, for the first time in many many years I have felt depressed, I hated that feeling, I feel myself emerging into caring about myself again and it feels really good! I hope it continues b/c the self hate was killing me! I am really going to work harder and harder to get here!
Boston, I bought a really good juicer Omega vrt330 and a Ninja blender! I'm going to be juicing a lot, I'm thinking it just may be good for you too, you ought to look into it, the more study I do on juicing the more it all makes sense! I love you and I'm praying for you Boston!!!!
Ok, girls, I can't see straight, I gotta get to bed!
I will be back, I feel so right when I post!!!! 

