Hi Julie and everyone else.

Julie, those cookies sounds so good.  What exactly does the wheat flour do to change how you cook and how things taste?  Do you just put the same amount of it as you would regular white flour?  I have never cooked with it.  I am sorry about your brother but glad he is home again.  Kidney stones are extremely painful.  I think its wonderful the place you have finally found yourself in.  Its like what you have been striving for all these years and you are there now.  I hope someday to be able to think about food the same way.

Lisa, hope you are feeling better and I too hope it won't be long before you will be able to go into the stores and shop your heart out as long as you want to.  You deserve to be able to do things you need and want to.

Cheryl, I am glad you posted and I hope things calm down for you soon.  You are going to burn out with the pace you are keeping.  Post as often as you can because we need you here and care about you.

Hi to everyone I wish you all would post because it seems we are dwindling down again around here.  I wish I could put into words to make it make sense what I am going through in my life.  I feel like the last few years have changed my life so much and there has been so many worries with the boys and other junk too.  I feel like I have failed on and in every area of my life.  I am so unhappy but never do anything to get myself out of the hole I am in.  I guess with every extra pound I am just going further in the hole but I am too sad to change it.  I know I have so much to be thankful for but I can't seem to find the happiness I should from that.  Its like a deep dark sadness that hurts so bad.  Im sorry but this is how I feel so much of the time and I am ashamed that I do feel like this but I just do.  I am planning on a short mini vacation next week and hopefully that will help me some.  I have just wanted to get away for so long.  Its been years since I went on vacation so I am looking forward to it.  Have a good night everyone and please post soon.