Hi Again,

Boston {{{{{hugs}}}} I am so sorry for all that you are going through. It's no wonder you've been down and not feeling well. Sounds like your brother died very unexpectedly - that alone is so hard to handle. I know that you live up in the mountains, and it may be hard to do, but can you get to a grief support group somewhere? Erin and I went to one after her dad died - I honestly don't know that it helped me so much, but I know that it helped Erin and others. And it does help to be able to talk about him with other people who have had losses and understand some of what you are going through. It's only been 4 months - of course you are still grieving, so don't beat yourself up about not accepting his death yet. Time will heal, but yeah, it does take time.

Anyway, the girls are 9 and 15 (she is just 3 months older than Erin). They have baked cookies and played games and are now watching a movie. Erin and Eileen have become very good friends in the last 3 years. The problem is that my brother and his girlfriend have a very bad relationship. They are fighting very badly right now and that is why I offered the girls to come over here. I know it will break the girls hearts if the 'parents' break up and they cannot hang around together anymore, but really it would be the best thing for all involved. My brother drives me insane!

Anyway, it is late - time to go... If I'm not too busy I will check in again tomorrow!

G'night all!

Mary