Hi Girls,
Happy THanksgiving a day late! Sorry again to be MIA, I have been sick as usual, and have finally gotten over the last of my tummy problems hopefully, cuz I am NOT doing my diet again!!!! I just can't do it right now with my tummy and all the ulcers, and everytime I do my diet, I get really sick, then gain all the weight I just lost, it is a vicious cycle and I am sick of being sick!! AND yesterday at my ds's house, I sat by a pit fire, cuz it was really cold here, 58, haha, anyways I sat by that fire for awhile, then I went to my mil's and sat by that fire for a few hours, and well, lets just say I am NOT the sharpest knife in the drawer!!! I got home last night covered in soot, and I smelled like smoke, so I took a shower, and then it happened! I was so out of breath, I thought I was gonna die! I could not breathe, and I kept smelling smoke, I stayed up all night and I almost went to the ER, but I was too stubborn, so I told my dh to just watch me while I sleep. I woke up around 1 pm and I still couldn't breathe right, then I finally figured it out, I kept smelling smoke, and I think that it was coming from my lungs?? I thought I wonder if this is smoke inhalation?? I am not sure, but that is the only explanation I can come up with. So today I did breathing treatments, and I will do them the rest of the weekend, and hopefully I will get better, if not I have to go to the Dr.

I have been beating myself up for days and days about my diet, and why am I such a failure, and I have gained 90 pounds of the 180 that I have lost back, and I am so mad at myself, and I am so sick from my diet, that I finally just told everyone, including my dh, I just can't do this diet right now!!! I was so mad, I told them YOU do my diet,without ulcers and see how you feel, well they all agreed to back me with whatever diet I decide to do, and try to help and encourage me along the way. I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulder. I know I have said in the past that I would do WW if my diet didn't work. But deep down, I refused to do WW, cuz I knew how well I did on MY diet. But now I realize that I am only hurting myself, and it really doesn't matter what my family or friends or dr's say. I AM the one who has to do the diet, not them. YA??? So I am going on WW probably on Sunday or Monday, once I get my breathing normal, well, as normal as someone on oxygen can get! I got all my old books out, and I may join online for now, but after the new year, my dh and I are going to go to meetings. And I am going to commit to riding my exercise bike 20 minutes a day to start, I will start out slow, and work my way up. My back has been giving out on me, the extra weight hasn't helped it, so my walking dvd's will have to wait a few weeks. So I feel a bit more relieved now, knowing that I AM in charge of what I am doing.

Karrie- You got a lot of work done, I bet your windows look really nice! I would wait on the varnishing too, I hate that smell, and it would make me sick too. I would never cook a turkey in a bag again, my Mom did it one year, and the turkey tasted horrible, it tasted like the bag. Yuck! I hope your back and tummy feel better, believe me, I know what you are feeling! Just take it easy this weekend and rest.

Cheryl- Haha, now I feel guilty talking about how 58 was sooooo cold, looking at that snow!!! Wow, and that's just the start! You sure do have a busy week ahead, but you'll choose wisely and do fine with your Sunday weigh in!! I bet it would be hard to exercise when it is so flippin cold outside. I think that I would want to curl up with a blankey and watch a movie or something. We love it cold here, cuz it only lasts a few weeks, then we are in the 60 and 70's after that until Summer hits.

Annie- Ha! I'm with you!! I am a Monday cyber shopper too! I did Black Friday ONCE! That was enough to cure me! I will pay higher prices just to avoid those rude people and stores lacking all the promised merchandise! haha My two nieces went, one went at 10 pm on Thanksgiving night, to wait in line, and the other went at 3 am, then shopped till noon, then went to work until 7. Ahhh, to be young! They offered to buy me things, so of course the things I wanted were gone! HA! As if they were ever there in the first place!

Boston- I'm saying prayers that your sissy will have a good outcome to her biopsy! I hope you have a good Thanksgiving tomorrow! Try not to do too much! Who cares if things are not done, what matters is your health and not hurting your tummy or your back! Take care of yourself!

Julie- Your dinner soundes good! I like a nice easy Thanksgiving dinner! We made ours simple this year too. I am really not a Thanksgiving dinner kinda girl. For some reason it upsets my stomach, it always has, even when I was healthy! My Mom always tells me not to eat it, your gonna get sick! But of course I eat it! My dh was soooooo sick like you guys too. He is finally getting over it. I am coughing really bad right now, and I am wheezing a bit, which kinda scares me! I'm putting my pic back up, so I can use it as an inspiration to get those 90 pounds off! NEW CHALLENGE???

Hi to everyone else! Talk to you girls tomorrow!

Lisa