Binge eater? I'm really not sure. And that is really funny, since I have been going to OA over a year now. I find their 12 steps hold great truth.

I clearly recall when I began bingeing...it was when my sister got married and moved to Canada and I was left the only one of my siblings still at home. I felt very much at sixes and sevens and began having "tea Parties" every night to make me feel better. (the Tea Party was a cup of hot tea -or two- that was an excuse for the cake I ate to go with it.)

That was the beginning of eating to "feel good" for me. It continued in the beginning of my marriage when I had some disillusionment and again used the "food cure" to be good to myself.

But I am not a hard core binge-er. I am clearly changing my mindset to realize that I am not beeing good to myself nor treating myself when binge (or pig-out as I call it). And, thank G-d I have not binge-ed once within the last year and half.

Now, if only I could find myself craving to be good to myself by doing the things that will really make me feel good in the long run....

Holly