Dear Kate, What a brave and beautiful soul you have! Just that you would open up and share your concerns and trials and be open to letting others both help you and bring comfort to you. That takes guts! Sometimes we make the mistake of shutting ourselves off- we think we have "failed" so much that no one wants to hear it. If we keep picking ourselves back up, learning new things to help us reach our goal and keep trying-- we are survivors and we will get to our goal one day. I wish you the very very best of luck and hope that you will continue to update us on how you are doing and letting everyone here help you. Much love, Mary